Jun 25, 2010 Comments: 4
Facing My Own Insignificance: How My Vacation Changed Me
Standing on top of a mountain looking down on the Northumberland Straight at Cape Breton Nova Scotia did something to me. When you’re a tiny bug of a person on a wild mountain with moose roaming about, clouds shrouding the sun, and waves rippling the vast sea below, you notice something about yourself.
I could do nothing to change the mountain, sea, or sky on my own from the little speck of dirt beneath my feet. I was helpless and at the mercy of my surroundings. Everything was large and powerful except for me.
Walking down the wooden steps to the various lookout points I felt dizzy at times, while other moments I felt the crushing power of my surroundings.
It was the perfect experience for the first few days of our vacation. In a sense, this holy moment on the mountain drove home the insignificance of my own worries, ambitions, and desires. They have their place, but they had been consuming me to the point of idolatry of some sort.
Perhaps this sense of awe and power is why God often met with his prophets up on mountains. The perspective is enlightening in and of itself. Hidden away in a cave or a snug valley, the effect on pondering one’s limitations is quite blunted.
On my way down the mountain I began praying the most important prayer I know that is also the easiest to forget: “Lord, what do you desire?” Throughout my vacation, as I’m sure I shall be for the rest of my life, I moved between this prayer of submission and my petitions.
I need to bring my petitions to God, but nothing quite puts them into perspective like a trip to a mountain top. From that mountain top I can see my plans and worries as mere specs in God’s creation, and once I receive the blow to my own ego, there is a comfort in knowing he can handle these larger matters, and as such, my own concerns are well within his abilities.











